it is not in my role
in my position
in my reputation
it is not in my future or desires
it is not in circumstances
it is not in things or people
My hope is in God. it has to be. The other things change and fade and I only can hope in the Lord.
I want to hold on to hope that good things will happen in my future. I want to have hope that I will be a mother, that i will make a great impact for the kingdom, that I will live on the field... but i can't hope in those things. God is my hope and I choose to hope only in Him.
Tomorrow i would have been 7 weeks pregnant but this weekend things changed quickly. my body and my emotions are trying to deal with the loss of our tiny baby. I still believe that God can do a huge miracle and that there could be a way for the baby to have survived but it's not looking very promising.
These last few months have rocked my foundations and it has made me more sure of the God that I love and serve. I will give it all up... my future, my plans, my way.... to follow my savior obediently and intimately.
pray that the God of comfort will be close to our hearts as we grieve.
ugh. jenny. praying for you. you HAVE made and WILL CONTINUE to make a great impact for the kingdom, you are living on the field. and you have done and are doing this BECAUSE you do hope in the Lord. thank you for being so real, so raw, so available. love you. praying for you - all three of you.
ReplyDeleteand my hope is in His redeeming heart - to bring beauty and joy out of pain. i love you my precious friend, and we are with you even tho we aren't. big hugs, ali
ReplyDeleteLove you. We will pray. I know how bad it hurts. We have babies in Heaven waiting for us one day. Sending you our love.
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